Do you think you take enough time for
yourself?
Do you love yourself?
Your relationship with yourself is
the most important relationship.
If you can't love yourself,
treat yourself with compassion, &
say kind things to yourself;
you can't expect to go out into a
world wanting to receive love from others.
Your relationship with yourself sets
the tone for all your relationships.
I am learning the hard way that I
have not taken enough time for myself.
Or truly even like my self at times.
I have moments where I question every
single thing about me.
My ego goes on rants about how I
deserve to be sad and how I don't have the capabilities to achieve my dreams. My
inner dialogue is my biggest critic and the biggest bully I know.
I have always been able to give
others advice with soft and kind words, but I have never been able to do that
for myself.
I have been a people pleaser as long
as I can remember. Always there for people, trying my hardest to be the greatest
friend. It became exhausting because I always put other's happiness above my
own. It has taken until now for me to feel entirely disconnected from
myself.
I have allowed past emotions to
bottle up inside me. I never truly experienced the pain when it happened and
just tucked it under the mat. I didn't expect it to come flowing out of me onto
people I love. All of this pain just erupted out of me. I never took the time
to feel the emotions and go through the pain. Now years later, it is hitting me
like a brick wall. I have finally been able to take the time for myself to
focus on what I need.
Which is to heal.
To take care of my self.
Truly love myself.
Every part.
Every quirk.
Every freckle.
I want to be able to sit with myself,
and truly love everything about me.
As selfish as that sounds. It is
incredibly important.
I'm not perfect. I am enough though.
I need to believe it.
We are placed with obstacles in life
to grow from.
I am slowly releasing the blocks of painful
emotions.
Sometimes we let out hurt, fear or
guilt onto someone to mask our own searing pain that we are afraid to
feel.
Releasing and forgiving.
Because I know from this point on,
things will only get better.
Because now I will love every part of
myself.
Shine as brightly as I once did.
